Inner Salvation

By: ™Mason™ & Reason

I have to learn to subdue my passions,
Unbridled lust,
Raging testosterone,
This manly urge to release myself.
The vicious yearning
For satisfaction overwhelming my intelligence,
Turning me from gentle giant to rampaging behemoth,
An un-evolved entity of which no man has relation to.
At times, these emotions eat away at my very existence,
Corroding my flesh, dissolving my intellect,
Turning what’s best about me into what’s worst.
Life's pleasures slowly tempting my consciousness,
Defying sanity,
Changing my reality into a cesspool of vile nothingness

And at times I reminisce,
The worst of what happened because of the devil that exists.
My rambunctious nature that haunts me to this day,
My future depending on the actions I make.
My life depending on whether I can learn restraint,
Even if its not living like a saint,
Even if it’s just to make this angry soul quiet,
A mind that holds on to the pain inside,
While I fight to my death instead of cry.
Cry for myself,
And what I have become in the end.
Is it possible to change this beast inside me?
Coexist with my alter ego quietly?
Live my life before the transition of my nothingness occurs,
And try to reach my own salvation before death comes first.