Suicidal Renditions

By: Reason & Simply Jay

Suicidal renditions of past times he once knew to be
While those same memories bring him back to reality

Escaping the realism of life trying to conceal the fear
Consuming pollutionIn his mind he begins to think,
curious of the future and how it may appear
Staring in the eyes of death as it nears.

As he conceals his emotions to ease his own pain
With a heart with no feelings being all that remains
Inside this young boy stripped of his own pride
Stripped of his own will, stripped of his own life

Victimized, a soul of blank ambition.
A voice with no sound, silently aroused.
Searching for meaning into the minds optic
Erasing the sense of humanitarian behavior.
Released his spirit, letting the blade become his savior.

Slowly but surely the blade glides through its destination
The fluid that once kept him living now escaping
He was so meek, yet his actions like a savage
Only God knows how for this long he managed
As visions of the past seem to collide with the present
The scars on his arms screaming his anguish
Hoping that in suicide, the pain will be vanquished

A single tear rolls down his eye.
Amazed at the instinct of pain; he cries.
Kin to death he contemplates his demise.

Contemplating his life, his soul drifting away
Visions becoming blurred, thoughts beginning to decay
Sickened by his own actions as his own mind he befriends
Just sitting there in the laps of death waiting for his own end

Depended on depression to guide him through his own adversity.
Staring blank as he encounters his keeper.
Faced with a decision he performs one last surgery
Slices his own throat to experience even deeper.
Now leaving the realms of Life as he
Crosses paths with the reaper.

Suicidal renditions of past times he knows to be
The same memories now bringing him back to Reality